And so the days wound on now wrapped in a sort of haze, the same spots with work spikes punctuated with hanging out with the other girls, getting high. It wasn’t long before I Lidia introduced to crack ally. The name alone is self explanatory. We skied for a few block before coming to a normal looking old brick apartment building. By no means the commy blocks from back home but pretty close. And I had to be me and stand like an idiot in the parking lot before being waved on in the small wedge between what I assume to be appropriates. She talked to a guy and after a bit of waiting she got… Přečíst více

And so the daly grind continued onward, yet for ones in my life I wasn’t alone. Like it’s always tough to be the new girl. Especially if your not cis. Even so I met Lidia, granted our first meeting was one night at the my usual corner when I was told to piss off even so… I broke the ice as it were. And soon enough I got aquinted with my little group. Lidia, Blake, Nina, the first time I went up to the library. Yes the same library where Nattily was last see alive, I was turned away yet me being me I didn’t take no for an answer and simply came back another day. Where I eventually met Beth.… Přečíst více

And so the day rotten began to set it, it’s the little things I remember. The waiting, the cool night air taking away the days heat. Eyeing up every passing car to see if they’re gonna stop for me. The trips to the store to get something. Then there was the little things to get use to. Using my phone to do my makeup, which would always ware off after a client. Balancing being board and wanting to watch videos on YT against draining my battery. Even so I was lucky to even have to deal with that as virtually non of the girls out there even had phones. Or as I would come to learn ID’s or… Přečíst více

There was no buss in the morning, so I had to walk, passing by the sight of my little flight the previous day. The night before there was yer another shouting match and whilst at work I decided I had enough. Came back stuffed the last few things in my bag and just bolted. Stoping to snap a picture of a frog I made it onto a buss just in time. But now my objective was Tim’s for some caffe and breakfast. Now that I could actually afford it unlike before I was out here. Despite the seaming chaos I was as prepaid as I could have been I suppose.. Had my ID’s phone and was lucky enough to have… Přečíst více

A light drizzle covers the dark street, a buss stop looming in the distance illuminating an empty highway. I chuckled to myself whilst lighting a smoke and look at the so-called “bum” covering himself with The sane tarp as it really sank in “I’m actually homeless” “This isn’t like Windfall” I thought to myself remembering a story I never finished writing but now just one image flashed through my mind. The long empty dark village roads back home in Eastern Europe, they seemed like they go on forever. Taking my backpack on the buss I road for a bit before reaching what I was looking for, so… Přečíst více

Haven’t posted anything in a while and been through a lot but yah little lizzy is still alive and kicking. A and in a relationship to boot. And yes I’m like 31 and this is my first relationship o know I know… But the road to get here was long and not do safe shall we say. Wound up homeless and was living on the street for a couple of months after a family problem, I know shocking… So turned to my one shore fire talent, the sex trade and was working the blade, not that I had much choice given my situation. Whilst there developed a crack habit… Well eventually ment my BF ?❤️?❤️ my love my e… Přečíst více

Sorry haven’t been in can for a while owing to not having wifi and don’t have the data for supporting like 3 decides at ones. Even so have a new video on the way as soon as I edit it and yah I got deep in my ass deeper then I thought I could go and there’s gonna be an outdoor sehr met as well despite how cold it is these days.… Přečíst více

Hi everyone it’s me. I’ve been wondering if anyone would be interested in a how to filming tutorial? With tips and tricks and what not.… Přečíst více

Ok I know I’m the Laster person to talk about a “proper” stream setup as my own is… lacking to say the least. Consisting of two iPhone a X and an SE2 and a surface pro first gen and various clip on and add ons. With the X being the most reliable, the SE’s battery’s cooked so having a power bank near by is mandatory along side it’s broken screen. Meanwhile the Surface pro is seemingly intent on doing a Jerry Rig everything test on itself by melitibg it’s own charging cable and burning it’s own screen… Meanwhile also recording for videos pulling 87 min of footage that now I have to cut down to a… Přečíst více

I know is been a hot minute but 2022 had been a terrible year and I’m still feeling the consequences there of. That being so I finally got what I wanted for SO LONG on a border line spy operation. Now I wanted to get estrogen. A thing I thought to be not more then a pipe dream out of a memory den, even so where there’s a will there’s a way and even chance made the opening I took the opportunity. In amongst the long hours and pay checks I still haven’t gotten for all intents and purposes I was the arent girl tasked with, well anything and everything. And so one exhausted summer day I was… Přečíst více

Well had a dream last night… hasn’t had any for a long time now, I don’t know have things gotten that bad? Other then that went looking for a job and just cuz I could I decided to go live.. After all some company is always welcome even if it’s just comments on stream… after all day mailing and delivery the few CV’s around in a vain attempt to “get a job” I’ve tried LinkedIn various local job sites, emails calls you name it. Even foolishly thought I could help my uncle with his business/social media promotion. All the while being put on “notifications have been silenced” treatment. Yah I k… Přečíst více

Here we are again... Good new at lest my one remaining computres back up and running... so that's something i suppose... other then that pissed myself by accident. Even so, its the same old shit... Contacts left and right no meetups sadly... i need a new video soon... Job hunting... though i cant help but think that i should have stuck it out in vienna oh well… Přečíst více

I don’t know i guess it’s less venting and me either wanting to talk to to someone or just organising my thoughts… who knows… This is particularly the reason I don’t want to go back here… somehow feel stagnant for lack of a better term. There’s nothing to do. Despite the stress of my Vienna trip I was doing something at least. And all the events of late have been ranging from doll to bizarre. To sad… mostly sad… I’m the one hand I met one guy and thought it was, well something… till I got ghosted even though I was 100% honest, I got constantly asked if I was with guys but I was with my siste… Přečíst více

I still remember you know, like back when I was in Vienna it was a dream. Stressful dream but still a dream, for a moment I was there, but like all dreams this one had to end as well. I’m partly still kicking myself for leaving whilst listening to that nagging voice inside my head telling me there was nothing more I could have done under the circumstances. Something that’s since been proven all too true as my promised 500€ pay check has yet to materialise… But it’s not all bad? I got to go home see my sister (middle) mum and all that, no word on dad yet… But here I am during on the porch sp… Přečíst více

Well turns out the moneys coming tomorrow, well I did say ex boss (the ladybird not the moron from Zagreb) is honest, that’s why I stuck it out so long….. But instead of thinking that this is sind kind of punishment for being overly careful. (I mean with what’s been happens lately well)… I like to look back and see what I can learn and take away from it as a lesson. After all I only got a job in the capital after like three trips there, boy those were wiled… Well yes I’m a coward by nature and will play it safe unless there a really good reason not to, like this… I broke the ice in a way, n… Přečíst více

Update video where I’ve been got the last year and exposing one of the biggest scum bags in Zagreb https://youtu.be/NO3jELDUsCQ New YouTube video explaining what’s been going on so far.… Přečíst více